Am I Wrong?
With each situation that comes up in my relationship, it makes me question more and more what the meaning of a romantic relationship really is.
Lord knows I have said this time and time again, relationships today are NOTHING like they were back when my parents and grandparents were young. And the relationships are nothing like they were many years before them as well! I mean seriously, men used to WRITE their women LETTERS while they were fighting in a WAR; today men can barely TEXT their women. Hell I know mine can’t!
(I also have said many times, social media is the biggest reason for this as well!)
Anyways, with no surprise I have sat tonight once again, baffled at the events I was dealt tonight. I start to question myself, but that’s exactly what a narcissist wants their victims to do, that way they can portray themselves as the one who does no wrong. Then I want to smack myself for almost falling into that bullshit, and wonder how a relationship can get to this point.
I say all this because of the following. Apparently I have become lactose intolerant, which I became aware of after eating a bowl of cereal. Just note, this was the 3rd time in a week that after having milk that I was sick, and the milk was not bad by smell or date. Anyways, this time the sick feelings I had were by far the worst ever. And as usual my darling had perfect timing and was leaving. Said he had to go to “Menards.”
He also said he wouldn’t be long. Unfortunately after he left I became sicker. At this point I was not keeping anything down. As most people who have upset stomachs, all I could think of drinking was some sprite to help ease my stomach. Being that my darling was out at a store, I called him to ask for a sprite to help me.
As usual I call my darling and he doesn’t answer. (The night before I called multiple times and no answer then either). In the Lovey fashion, I text him, of course pointing out how I don't even know why I bother calling because he never answers or calls back but that I was really sick needing something.
When sick, the only other thing to do is sleep that shit off. Took no time and I was out like a light, for about 3 hrs or so. When I woke, I instantly regretted waking up because nothing good was going to come over me at this point. Reason being - my darling had failed to ever come home from “Menards.”
So not only had he still not come home from his quick trip that was already 4 hours long, he also never once returned my call LET ALONE CHECK on his SICK “fiancé.” The text I sent, it took him over an hour and half to even read and respond with what’s up.
By this point I was pissed. I hit him up and pointed out how it’s funny that he can take a call from some number I didn’t know and which was probably some wh@re, as well as text them within the same time frame of my calls and texts BUT he can’t check mine? (And yea I’m that one who does check the call logs on our cell phone account - and more than once I’ve caught him doing some cheating ass bullshit by looking at these records.)
I also pointed out how shitty it was that he couldn’t even call or text me asking if I was okay or even ask if I needed anything. To top everything off, with everything he didn’t do, the only thing he did was log into the account and take me OFF of it completely. Okay boo, all you did here was confirm that you're a dog doing shit and talking to people that obviously would upset me to know about.
I’ve said this more than once and I’m gonna continue to say, IF YOU AREN'T DOING ANYTHING WRONG THEN YOU WOULDN'T HAVE SHIT TO HIDE OR WORRY ABOUT!!!! So what are you hiding Boo? Smfh
On top of being sick now I’m completely disgusted by this guy who CLAIMS to “Love” me. Which leads me to my question, what is the meaning of a romantic relationship? What is a romantic relationship between 2 people like? I mean am I crazy for thinking it’s wrong to not check on your significant other when they are sick? Or how it’s not right that you ignore your significant other's phone calls and messages not only in general, but again when they are sick!? (Shit, I can’t even have you as my emergency contact because I’ll be dead before you ever answer or consider me to be of any importance.)
And last, am I really in the wrong, being upset that he took me off our account and feeling confident that he’s just hiding the truth of his real actions tonight? I mean forreal is an honest, caring spouse really that hard to ask for? Do couples not work as a team and build together anymore?
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